Lost and Found
Eclipse
2024
After the amnio went so horribly inconceivably wrong on December 5, I spent the next few weeks just trying to keep the two of us alive. All my amniotic fluid drained away so I had to drink entire water coolers full of fluids every day to save her. Complete bed rest interrupted by constant doctor visits, incessant invasive procedures, no sleep, no desire to eat or speak. Yet I had a 2 & 1/2 year old son who needed me but, because of the tenuous fragility of the remaining baby, he was no longer allowed to sit on my lap and be held. My heart was broken in a thousand different ways and my soul was a tender bruise.
It was Christmas and there was no joy to the world.